I Have a Secret...

It has to do with life and moods and finding things out about yourself.
Its about being healthy and happy and switching to decaf coffee.
Its learning to accept the down times because it just initiates the opposition of being so high on life that you want to kiss everyone and meet all the new people you come across.
Its about always forgetting double letters in words and realizing you've been depressed for a long time and are waking up from the dream and that you don't really care about correctly spelled words but more about savoring the feeling and making jokes.
Its being so happy you think you might cry just telling someone how happy you are.
Its learning that hormones are funny things and beer is delicious. The two together... Not so much.
Its jelly beans from a jelly bean bubble gum machine.
Its learning you have a knack for things you've always shied away from, like poetry and sharing much needed info.
Its being totally over text messaging and wanting to go back to old fashioned letters.
Its learning you want to reach people in a lasting way.
Its being sassy and loving three ring binders.
Its smiling and dancing simply because you can.
Its meeting the challenge.
Its a new form of inspiration.
Its foregoing drama to be the bigger person.
Its finding people really do like the real you as long as the real you is who you really are.
Its realizing you love someone so much that the sun shines out the back of them and you want to trudge or soar through every difficulty.
Its having dreams, or using the less corny word, aspirations come true through hard work and a lot of deodorant, since showers take too much time.
Its being fingerprinted for the first time without having done anything wrong.
Its having a planner that actually has writing in it.
Its not fully preparing for class and still knowing you did well.
Its ten dollar sunglasses.
Its remembering people even when you only meet them once, even if you met them for only 30 seconds.
Its Winnie the Pooh Bear.
Its learning you can't get a work study job without already having work study but you can't get work study unless you have a work study job.
Or needing experience to get teaching jobs and needing teaching jobs to get experience.
Its music infusion.
Its free stuff even if its junk.
Its giving.
Its finding extra space on your computer, sometimes as much as 34.41 GB of it.
Its still not breaking the habit of biting your nails even though you are officially and forever more an adult.
Its not knowing how down you are until you are up again.
Its being too deep and making people uncomfortable or being too shallow and making yourself feel dumb.
Its sticking up for someone you don't like.
Its having friends you ADORE... And stalk a little, but not in a creepy way.
Its striking a pose.
Or continuing to dance when the music is gone.
Its being unable to NOT dance because you realize how blessed you are.
Its making a fool out of yourself and not caring in the least.
Its having too many thoughts to make sense of any of them.
Its being totally out of thoughts and over your poetic urges...